TIME is TICKING and THE BOMB is COUNTING

why do you have to hide your real feelings ?
I don't need any sweet words only to boost me up, but in the end, those words will only hurt me, badly.

it's not my first time, though.
i've been in this situation like for 3/4 times. so this ain't a big deal. But, what makes me grieved is, why you have no bravery to be honest with me.
it's just far from what we wanted at the very first time.

why it is hard for you to say it, openly.
if you ask me to explain "what has been changed from me?",
I will say nothing but "have a silence moment, and open your heart".

yes, indeed ...
you can count me as your best friends, sister, and girlfriend for sure.
but, those privileges can not lead you into a person who treats me like whatever you want.

despite, all my toughness which I have shown and carried for all these times ...
I'm only a woman who has limitation of patience ...
shout out and mad to people are not my mastery.
again, my heart is just like a bomb machine.
it's ready to blow whenever it's ticking over my boundaries ...

a never lost old memories ...

dating a guy who ever once committed to get marry in his past is somehow hurting your own feelings ...

hearing that he was that close to another girls in his past is somehow tearing your eyes ...

knowing your partner ever had chosen a wrong path in his past is somehow waking you up all night long ...

but, despite to his past ... Loving him for what he is now and Moving on to the next chapter are probably the best way to through ...